I've totally given up on Mindsay. The end.
xxaradiaxx
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I might be switching over to Xanga....Mindsay is getting kinda old. I might still update, but if you read my Mindsay, you should check out my Xanga too.
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=WlCKEDcool
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Daily Rant
"I really can't figure me out right now. I'm in such a weird mood and the day so far has been one big haze. Literally. My eyes keep going in and out of focus when I try to concentrate and I can't keep my attention on one thing for more than five seconds. I can't see and everything seems to be spiraling around me. It's really weird. I'm in one of those moods where I don't want to talk to anyone and every little thing the people around me are doing is extremely annoying. Everything is agitating me to the point that I need to yell at someone. I just want to be by myself, all caught up in a bunch of nothingness.
I am about to explode. Right here, in the middle of class. I just need something to take the edge off. I just want to smash my head against the wall and knock myself out. I still want to be lost in nothingness. Unconcious, black, silent, slow, calm nothingness. I wish I had nothing to do. I wish I just had the time to sit and count to infinity with nothing else to worry about, I need my own time to just sit and be me. Do whatever I want with no restraints. No worries. Sitting in silence for as long as I wanted would be like a trip. Trips let you experience things you never have . My drug free trip would be silence and nothing. It would be my "pure sunshine".
I wish my brain would draw a blank. A long blank to give me time to think of nothing. I want it to stop rambling for ten minutes and give me some peace and quiet. Peace. Everything I want goes back to silence. That's it. Just pure silence."
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No emo kids - Feeling emo?
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If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something...
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No emo kids - Feeling emo?
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“I discovered that to achieve perfect personal silence all I had to do was to attack myself leechlike to sound. I began to listen to everything. I probably hoped that after I had heard all the sounds, really heard them and packed them down, deep in my ears the world would be quiet around me. I walked into rooms where people were laughing, their voices hitting the walls like stones, and I simply stood still- in the midst of the riot of sound. After a minute or two, silence would rush into the room from its hiding place because I had eaten up all of the sounds”
It's amazing. I tried this today...I'm not really sure if it's possible. I put all my effort into silence, complete silence, but nothing happened. Even when everything is silent, you can't keep the thoughts in your head from rambling on, so it doesn't ever seem like you're ever in total silence. It's weird how sometimes you aren't thinking about anything, and it does seem like silence until you realize you aren't think about anything. That's kind of confusing, but when you actually try to think about nothing, you just end up thinking about trying to think about nothing. Once again, kind of confusing, but I don't know how else to put it. This entry is actually surprisingly long, considering I am in Government right now. I just got caught up in the moment of reading the quote at the top of the entry, and I just had to ramble on about it. Yeah, I guess I should probably do my work now...so....Later kiddies.
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Put x's for things that apply to you:
Have you...
[x]kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x]rode in a taxi.
[x]been dumped.
[ ]shoplifted
[ ]been fired.
[x] had a job.
[ ]been in a fist fight.
[ ]snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ]been arrested.
[ ]stole something from your job.
[ ]celebrated new years in times square.
[ ]went on a blind date.
[x]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[x]broken a bone.
[x]told a lie
[ ]had a crush on a teacher.
[ ]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[x]been to a concert
[ ]been to europe.
[ ]made out in a movie.
[ ]taken caffeine pills.
[x]been to disney world.
[x]been to new york
[x]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[ ]been to california.
[ ]been skinny dipping.
[x]regretted something.
[ ]peed on someones lawn.
[ ]skipped school.
[ ]thrown up from drinking.
[ ]lost your sibling.
[x]kissed a member of the same sex.
[x]been in a car accident.
[ ]partied for days and days straight
[x]had a family member die.
[x]played 'clue'.
[x]had a sleepover party.
[x]went ice skating.
[ ]had a sweet sixteen.
[ ]had a quinceanera.
[ ]had a car.
[x]drove.
Do you...
[ ]have a bf.
[ ]have a gf.
[x]have a crush
[ ]have a dog
[x]have your own room.
[x]have a sibling
[ ]listen to rap.
[x]listen to emo
[x]listen to punk ( a little bit)
[x]paint your nails.
[ ]play a sport.
[ ]play more than one sport.
[ ]watch sports on tv
[ ]have a fav. group/singer/artist
[x]have more than 1 best friend.
[x]get good grades.
[x]play an instrument
[x]have slippers.
[x]wear boxers. (to bed)
[x]wear makeup
[x]wear black eyeliner
[ ]like the color blue.
[ ]like the color yellow.
[x]like to read.
[x]like to write.
[ ]have long hair
[x]have short hair.
[x]have a cell phone.
[ ]have a laptop.
[ ]have a pager.
Are you...
[x]ugly.
[ ]pretty.
[ ]ok.
[x]bored.
[x]happy.
[x]bilingual. (somewhat)
[x]white.
[ ]black.
[ ]hispanic.
[ ]asian.
[ ] armenian.
[ ]short.
[x]tall
[ ]grounded.
[ ]sick.
[x]lazy.
[x]single.
[ ]taken
[x]looking.
[ ]not looking.
[x]talking to someone.
[x]IMing someone.
[ ]scared to die.
[x]sleepy.
[x]annoyed.
[ ]on the phone.
[ ]in your room.
[ ]drinking something.
[ ]eating something.
[ ]in your pjs.
[ ]naked
[x]in regular clothes
[x]ticklish.
[x]listening to music.
No emo kids - Feeling emo?
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Happy New Year kids!
There has been some fun, sad, hilarious, and totally crazy times this year. Not the best year I've ever had, but it has definitely had it's share of good times. I'd have to say the best thing about this year was starting high school. I have met so many awesome new people, made new friends, and I've gotten closer with some old friends. So, thanks to everyone who made this year awesome, and I hope 2005 is just as cool as this year. Happy New Year!
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|I'm not|
|Alyssa |
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Welcome to the Witness Protection Program. Your identity will never be found out due to our major advances in face ID technology like shown above.
Fun times, Crystal, fun times.
No emo kids - Feeling emo?
An actual update....kind of
Pre-School --
What were you like: I was pretty shy and quiet
Who was your teacher: It's funny how easily you forget things....
Who was your best friend: Emily Snow (she was Emily Montgomery at the time)
Who did you have a crush on: Some kid...Eric..
Something random: I was jumping up and down on the steps to the little train play ground thing and I bashed my chin on a step and my lip started to bleed.....I got a popsicle and no one else did...Haha
* Kindergarten --
What were you like: Still shy and quiet
Who was your teacher: Mrs.Allen
Who was your best friend: Still Emily
Who did you have a crush on: Eric still?
Something random: They used to send me home a lot because they thought I had pink eye when I really just had allergies and rubbed my eyes a lot....
* First Grade --
What were you like: A little more outgoing....
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Raymond
Who was your best friend: Brittany Crowly (can you believe it?)
Who did you have a crush on: Cosmo...hahaha, what a cool kid
* Second Grade --
What were you like: More outgoing again...
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Bowlus
Who was your best friend: Kate Mueller
Who did you have a crush on: this kid Brandon I think...
Something random: We did this play...about like...the circus...and then one about....rain. And Brendan Henning was in my class...mmm
* Third Grade --
What were you like: Cool? Hahaha, no way.
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Crist
Who was your best friend: Britney Ledger
Who did you have a crush on: Brandon...I think
Something random: We used to do the dumbest stuff during recess....like dance.
* Fourth Grade --
What were you like: I was a good kid.
Who was your teacher: Mrs. Healey
Who was your best friend: Kelly Thomas
Who did you have a crush on: Don't really remember...
Something random: My teacher was wicked cool...
* Fifth Grade --
What were you like: Fifth grade rocked....I remember that much.
Who was your teacher: Mr. Richardson
Who was your best friend: Kelly Thomas
Who did you have a crush on: Cosmo...he told me he liked me..it was super cute...it like made my whole summer excellent
Something random:
* Sixth Grade --
What were you like: A loner
What was your favorite class: English
Who was your best friend: I dunno...
Who did you have a crush on: Brendan Payne...I'll admit it.
* Seventh Grade --
What were you like: Turning punk....hahaha, way to not label myself
What was your favorite class: English
Who was your best friend: Kim Peirson
Who did you have a crush on: Devin Minnich
Something random: Mrs. Adams class rocked my socks off.
* Eighth Grade --
What were you like: Loser times 2
What was your favorite class: Science....Lampke was awesome
Who was your best friend: Brittany Ewell and Kim Peirson
Who did you have a crush on: Devin...again.
Something Random: Brittany and Kim got detention for yelling my name at the school concert. Good times.
That's my school life so far. Oh yes. Later. <3
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